Wednesday, December 15, 2004 On The Planned Murder of Scott Peterson... ¶ 11:59 AM No matter how you rationalize it, punishment is not a deterrent to criminal behavior (as has been shown by numerous studies). It is plain and simple vengeance, and as such serves no function other than to create more strife. If you think that most of that strife is on the criminal, then you are a victim of your own limited thinking. The strife invariably works its way over and over back into our lives. If we don’t stop seeing just the elephant’s tail, then we will keep getting trampled under its feet! Murder is murder is murder. How do we ever expect our citizens to respect life, if we don't respect it as a society? If you think I'm a leftist bleeding heart liberal, then what would you have called Jesus? (Who was publicly executed for a "serious crime" in his day.) Posted by: Joe

Tuesday, December 14, 2004 No-Knock Search Warrents ¶ 11:54 AM So, if you’re not a criminal then you have nothing to complain about. In fact, we need some new crimes, so we can weed out the riffraff. Let's make consuming alcohol a crime again. It didn't work last time because there wasn't enough law enforcement. We could make it work easy this time, especially with a no-knock warrant. Lord knows there’s plenty of law enforcement these days. While we’re at it let outlaw homosexuality, and other unnatural sex, like pre-marital sex. Making babies is serious business and there should be laws against defaming the process. We should also require all women to cover their bodies more in public, like they do in more civilized countries. Maybe even require them to cover their pretty little faces in public, and send them to jail for a day or two if they get snooty about it (no need to stone them, that would be cruel). The fact is, our constitution as contemporarily interpreted would allow all of these laws. So let’s get with it people. You see, it’s not law enforcement that’s broken; it’s our laws themselves. We should make it against the law to possess certain types of pictures that offend us (like child porn), and we should make a law against ingesting all harmful addictive substances (say good-bye to sugar, coffee, and Coca-Cola!) Heck, let’s make breathing too fast against the law, we’ve got to conserve the air you know, and it makes you high, and it’s not good for you. So who’s the criminal now? Posted by: Joe

Monday, October 25, 2004 There Can Be Only One ¶ 9:27 AM I finally cleaned up my bathroom this weekend, though I probably should have been studying instead. I like my nice clean bathroom. Now all I have to do is clean my cats room and the front porch area, then my office, and living room and dining room and kitchen...crap, I need a maid! Here is an important concept missed by so many but taught in the Bible, Koran, I-Ching, Toa Te Ching, and many other great books of wisdom: There is only one Will in the Universe. If you beleive your will is seperate from the One Will, then you beleive you have the power to defy God. Think about it. Posted by: Joe

Friday, October 08, 2004 Without Forgiveness There Is Only Insanity ¶ 9:35 AM I was thinking on the drive to work yesterday that much of the insanity in this world is directly driven by the lack of our willingness (or ability) to forgive. This is actually a fairly profound and involved concept that would likely take a book to explain, so I'll just leave it to you to figure it out (if you care to of course). Here's a hint: Forgiveness is letting go of blame; by letting go of blame we are forced to confront the problem. By not letting go of blame we evade the problem and it will invariably come back, usually worse than before. This applies to all levels of the "Human Condition" from personal problems where we fail to forgive ourselves, to criminal issues where we fail to take responsibility for crime in our community and country (by blaming or not forgiving the offenders). Forgiveness allows us to see the problem more clearly, and if the forgiveness is genuine then it also motivates us to do something about the problem via the empathy we feel for those we have forgiven. Posted by: Joe

Tuesday, October 05, 2004 Another Open Letter To The Police Cheif ¶ 9:49 AM To the Police Cheif: So, you leave unanswerable questions unanswered. Maybe you shouldn't purport thinking that raises such questions. You probably think you are Christian, but Christ would never evict someone for using drugs, not even from heaven! Apparently you would. Healing can not start without forgiveness. So if you don’t forgive, then you are only prolonging the pain (others pain). You are even guiltier than the culprit because you are in a better position to forgive. You can start the healing instead of continuing to hurt people, yet you choose to not forgive and ignore the most important message from Christ. You choose to support the criminal dilemma rather than stop it. Your most important clients are the criminals, they need your help the most, and yet you would evict them rather than help them. A child victim is always tragic, what angers me is your blindness to your role in supporting the whole victim/criminal cycle. Who is worse; a sex offender, or the people who support the system that supports the sex offenders rational, so no matter how many you lock up there will always be more to take their place? You know it’s true, but you can’t say so or you’d be admitting your own futility. God forbid, and damn the children. Posted by: Joe

Sunday, September 12, 2004 Chicken Pot Pie ¶ 3:11 PM I'm home, Sunday Afternoon, nothing to do, everything being undone. Nobody to remind me. Life is about giving your choices over to God. Chicken pot pie in the oven. Why can others not see the unity of the universe. Why are they so blind in their dungeons. Posted by: Joe

Thursday, August 26, 2004 Home Invasion ¶ 6:26 PM My home was invaded by several police officers just this last Friday while I was at work. I caught them just after they broke in through a window on my web cam which sends an alert to my cell phone when it detects motion. My phone alerted me to the break in while I was waiting for Investigator Chad Jutz fill out the paperwork after searching my car and taking a disposable water proof camera. The said they were looking for pictures of two boys who were molested more than a month ago by a man driving a red car and who had a "bump" on his lip. The man took pictures of the boys and so they took all my cameras and my home computer to look for pictures. Of course I am clean, they might find some pictures of me naked, non-sexual mode photos I used once to make a birthday card for a girlfriend once) but that's about it. At first the search did not bother me too much, since I anticipated it happening eventually considering the way the police think (a sex offender driving a red car committed a crime, I'm a sex offender and I drive a red car, it does not matter I live about 60 miles from the crime and even in a different state). They can get away with the search warrant because I am a sex offender and no one is going to blame them if they find nothing since I am guilty by historical fact. But after the first night home I could not sleep, I felt just like I had been burglarized, but what made it worse is I could not call the police to help me get my property back, they were the ones who took it! They made a mess of my house, and I have not cleaned it up since (almost a week has gone by). I can hardly bring myself to even go home. It took me a couple of days to figure it out, but the reason is that a home is someplace where you feel safe and secure. That's what "at home" means. Well, all my security went out the window when the cops came in. They even took my home security system (web cam) so I can't even monitor my house anymore from my cell phone like I'd become accustomed to (I have a web enabled phone, so I could actually get live images from inside my apartment anytime by just flipping it open and pushing one button). I am now 99.99 percent sure I will move to a different state as soon as I graduate and can find a job in a state where I'm not required to register. Posted by: Joe

Monday, August 23, 2004 Letter To My Step-Brother and Sister: ¶ 8:32 AM What you believe has a direct bearing on how you perceive the world. If you can change what you believe, you can change your world. If you can’t change what you believe, then you are not free. Don’t let your beliefs bind you. Instead use the power to change what you believe to free your spirit. Choose to believe that God’s Love is in everything, no matter what we have been taught. If this were not true then God’s Love would be limited. God’s Love is not limited, so it must be there even when we can not see it, or feel it with our limited emotions and views (Our view is always limited, only God’s view is infinite). I take this to the extreme. I believe God’s Love is in Satan. I’ve seen it, but did not recognize it at first because my limited perception could not see past the contradiction. But contradictions can only become manifest in a limited reality (our reality—Satan’s domain). Contradictions are not possible for God. The very definition of a contradiction requires that two limited conceptual elements disagree. The elements must be limited, because something that does not have limits can not have contradiction because the only thing it could ever contradict would be itself. So contradictions hide the truth from us by causing us to focus on the elusion, instead of the Truth—the Truth is that God’s Love Knows No Bounds! What has happened in our past is, by definition of our limited existence, not changeable. And since we have no control over the past, the past is not relevant, it simply does not matter. The only thing that matters is what we can change. And the only thing we can change is what we do, think and feel this instant, right now! I’m sure you have heard this a million times, “To live in peace we must learn to let go of our past.” I’m not talking about forgetting what we have learned, or who we are, or where we come from. I’m saying embrace these things, as your friends. But also be willing to let them go and be what they are on their own. They do not own you and you do not own them. The past does not need us, and we do not need the past. We only need the present, and it is provided by God’s Grace. Your past owns it’s self, and just like a good friend their can be no debt between you. Does any of this make sense to you? I hope so. I really enjoyed my visit and getting to spend time with three really special people. These are not idol words, you all made me think about what is important to me, and that would be you—Family! I’ve already indulged in my greediest desires, and have discovered first hand that Satan has no Power over Gods Truth. Posted by: Joe

Monday, August 23, 2004 The Lion Queen ¶ 8:17 AM The following is a quote from a book I would like to write someday...(Yes, I wrote this) Jan had always resented the fact that his parents were separated, more than the fact that his relationship with his father was sexual. Maybe if his father had actually attempted to act out his feelings things might have been different. But, daddy had never actually committed anything that would constitute an act of incest. To Jan incest was just one of those words that people liked to use for drawing imaginary lines in their worlds. The lines were necessary so they could point and say, “That is bad” (ergo, “I am good.”) So when the pre-sentence investigator made his report to the judge about Jan’s upbringing, he made sure to point out that Jan had come from a “normal” family and nothing “bad” had every really happened to him. The implication of course was that Jan was somehow inherently bad, and therefore the only one who could be blamed for this heinous crime. Society, the system, and by association, the investigator himself could be of no blame, and by default were of course completely innocent. It seemed to Jan as though the real intent of this hearing was to establish the innocence of society, by placing the burden of guilt completely on the shoulders of a fifteen year old boy. If Jan is evil, then society is pure and innocent, the proverbial victim, and order is restored. “This young man has no excuse for his heinous behavior.” Spit the prosecutor. There was that word again. Jan had looked it up in a tattered old dictionary the night before in his jail cell. It meant, “Grossly wicked or reprehensible; abominable.” He had to look up the words, grossly, reprehensible, and abominable too. More words for drawing lines, separating Jan from the “good” people. The prosecutor continued his contempt of Jan, “Your honor, the people are afraid. We are afraid for our children, and we are afraid for our own safety. “ Posted by: Joe

Saturday, August 21, 2004 Search warrant, Or Burglary? ¶ 9:47 PM So, we live in a country where the police can legally enter our homes against our will and take whatever they think they might be able to use against us in a "court of law." They don't have to ask, they don't have to have a good reason, they only have to have probable cause, which translates to "nothing." I was robbed yesterday by the police. They took my home computer, my digital camera, my camcorders (which I was using for home surveillance) and a lot of regrettable media. Supposable they were looking for pictures of a crime, but I think they were looking for anything they could find to convict me for anything they can. Fact is, there is nothing on or in anything they took that is even remotely illegal. I keep my nose very clean, knowing all along that my so called "rights" are just an illusion that the government uses to keep me complacent. I figured something out though. I always wondered what the point to the "right to remain silent" and the "right to an attorney" were all about. I mean, the government pretty much does what it wants, so why does it propup such phony pointless rights? I never really understood until now; they use these "rights" to justify aggressive police tactics, like search and seizure. If the police were anywhere near honorable then they would ask first, and the term "innocent until proven guilty" would be more than just words. I would have gladly let the police look at my computer and scan my recordable media, they didn't have to take it. They could have looked at it with out tearing my house about, and taking all my personal tapes of my family and friends. We shouldn't need attorneys to deffend us from false accusations. Instead, there should never be any false accusations. The police should never act unless they have proof, not some shaddy notion they call probable cause. Posted by: Joe

Friday, August 06, 2004 Cop No Show ¶ 7:46 AM So, I made it a point not to go out, or go to bed early last night because Sgt. Pallus told me that an officer would be stopping by to confirm my address. Well, she never showed. But a student from school stopped by who had asked me to help him with html and JavaScript. While he was there I was worried the officer would show up. I don't know if he knows about my "status" as a registered sex offender or not, it is not something I feel is important for people to know. But, regardless if he was aware or not, the situation would have been awkward. My attitude is now this: if the police want to supervise me, then they are going to have to figure out a way to do it without my cooperation, because I'm getting tired of the harrasment. Posted by: Joe

Thursday, August 05, 2004 Distractions ¶ 3:12 PM I took the afternoon off to study for a Chemistry exam tomorrow. While I'm making okay progress on the material, I am more than a little distracted knowing that the police are going to pay me a visit sometime today to do their regular registered sex offender address check. I always get agitated when dealing with the police. What amazes me is when people say, "If you're not doing anything wrong then being around police shouldn't bother you so much." Well, these people have obviously had little-to-no dealing with police, or they are the police. I don't like the police, and I don't much care if they don't like me (which judging by sneers and snide comments I have received from the police in the past, they certainly don't like me). They live in a world were "right" and "wrong" are absolutes, which any thinking person realizes of course is ridiculous. I believe there is "right" and "wrong" but I realize intimately that these are relative to my perceptions of reality, which as I just mentioned in an earlier blog entry, is almost totally in my head. So, I don't expect others to see the same things as "right" and "wrong" as I do, but I will defend what I think is "right" to my own death, but I would never expect someone else to fight for my belief. It is all belief. I believe intentionally hurting another person is wrong, and if I see you hurting another person, and that person asks (directly or indirectly) for help (in other words, they also think what you are doing is wrong) then I will step in. But if that other person indicates they do not want my help, then I will not impose my belief on them, though I might tell them what I think. The issue of adults hurting children is a tricky one, but clear in my mind though difficult for my to express without sounding callus, while I am really very compassionate, only recognizing the true consequences of imposing my beliefs on other people as more harmfully than any harm one person could ever inflict on another. I have long believed and have often expressed; nothing you (one person) can do to me will make me anywhere near as angry as what the system has already done and is doing to society and every one in it this very moment. Posted by: Joe What Is Reality? ¶ 7:40 AM Some time in the middle of last night I had a waking illusion, I woke up, and while fully conscious (well, maybe not fully, but enough the realize what was going on) I saw a dog in my room. I knew immediately it was an illusion, and I just waited for it to dissolve as I further awoke. I have these type of illusions frequently, but always when I am half asleep or half awake. They intrigue me. They are manisfestations of my mind, and yet what isn't? They make me realize that everything I see, feel, hear, and smell, are all manisfestations of my mind. The only, and important, difference is that when I am fully awake the manisfestations are triggered by on external stimulus. But everything I experience is still just an illusion loosely based on the "real" world. A "Matrix" world is not only possible, but technically very feasable. All one would have to do is proivide the brain with "hints" and it will do the rest. Am I dreaming such a dream now? Am I? Posted by: Joe Fear ¶ 7:30 AM Even though the chances of a child being abducted by a stranger are less than the same child being struck by lightening, or bitten by a shark, children today are preoccupied with that fear. Fear is the beginning of isolation, confusion and hate. All governments know that the biggest threat to their power over the people is unity amongst the people. Governments throughout history have sought ways to disrupt that unity. Our government is the master of this technique. It is routine and even expected for our children to turn in their parents if they even suspect they are not conforming. Our children are taught in schools, "Do not talk to strangers, they are dangerous and want to hurt you." "If any adult makes you feel uncomfortable, run away and report them immediately." "The police are your friends." What a great way to keep our children from learning new things and thinking for themselves. The last thing the government wants you to do is think, the first is to feel...Fear! Posted by: Joe

Sunday, August 01, 2004 Lonely Dreams ¶ 2:27 AM I dreamed again last night about being back in prison. This time it was the lack of companionship that seemed to be emphasized in the dream. In the dream I stood in the day room looking at the other inmates and felt terribly alone, and frustrated, because the inmates were for the most part a bunch of losers and I just didn't fit in. In the dream I was also transported to a juvenile jail. When I realized I was in a juvenile center I yelled at the guards, "This is wrong! I'm 40 years old, I don't belong here!" They said that I did, and there was no mistake. Weird. Posted by: Joe First Line of Defense ¶ 2:21 AM I decided to hire an attorney to help in situations where I am being investigated just because I am on the "List of usual suspects." It cost me $500 out of pocket, but I think it could end up being well worth it for my own peace of mind. The attorney already saved me the headache of having to deal with the police who called the other week and wanted me to drive 45 miles just so he could eliminate me as a suspect. What a hassle, I also spoke with this attorney about the possiblity of filing a harasment law suit. Posted by: Joe

Friday, July 09, 2004 Here We Go Again! ¶ 5:41 PM I got a call today from an investigator in a city about an hours drive away from where I live. Apparently I am a suspect for some un-defined incident that occurred last Sunday. He would not tell me anything about what happened, though he did not seem too concerned except to say it was a felony and all felonies are serious (in other words it probably was not too serious at least). The officer wants me to drive to his city to talk to him. I almost told him I would, until he told me I was a suspect (I had to ask). Then I told him I would get back to him after I talk to an attorney. I contacted an attorney and he told me it was a good thing I called and no matter what happens I should not go see the police alone. So now I have to dish up $500 for this attorney to keep the police off my back just because of my past. That was money I had hoped to use to buy a new wet suit for an upcoming scuba trip on Lake Superior. Posted by: Joe

Saturday, July 03, 2004 Dream Prophecy ¶ 7:45 PM I had a very explicit dream last night. I dreamed that I was scuba diving and ran out of air but I could still breath, I just didn't know for how long. I was going to dive today, and actually started to, but when I got to the lake I turned around and came back. I just hope the dream was for today. Posted by: Joe