Man 'stunned' DNA shows he wasn't snatched tot
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By Jeff Seidel, Detroit Free Press
KALKASKA, Mich. — John Barnes is back in Kalkaska, Mich., back in his home in the woods — still unsure who he is.
In his first interview since the FBI announced Thursday that DNA tests proved that Barnes was not Steven Damman, a child who was abducted in New York in 1955, Barnes told the Free Press on Monday that he was disappointed and apologized to anyone that he hurt, including the Damman family.
Despite the DNA results, Barnes still does not feel he is related to the family that raised him and he has no desire to have any relationship with them. He said he wants to continue his relationship with Pamela Horne, Steven Damman's sister, and he will continue to search for his identity.
In a lengthy phone interview, Barnes spoke about a number of topics.
What was your reaction to the FBI results?
"I was disappointed, kind of stunned, but I really thought I was that kid. I wasn't trying to draw attention to myself or create a hoax or run a scam or anything like that ... My intention was never to be on television or to hurt other people's feelings. I want to make sure people know that. The story got blown out of proportion. It took off like a rocket. That wasn't my intention ... I was just looking for my true identity and I still am … I've had dead ends and been disappointed before. I'm not going to stop now. I'm going to keep searching the rest of my life."
Barnes said that he was quietly doing research and it spun out of control in the media.
"I was just doing my own little investigation. I wasn't bothering anybody. I was up here in the woods. I don't know who alerted the newspaper reporters. I didn't do it. I didn't know it was going to be like that. I'd like to apologize to the Damman family. I did not think, when I started this, I didn't think it would turn out like it did. I didn't want to get their hopes up and have it turn out that way. I'm not that way. I apologize for that … I'm apologizing to anybody who had their feelings hurt, or was disappointed. I'm not that kind of a guy. I live up here in the woods. I mind my own business. I take care of my property. But I do have a question about my identity and that's what I was looking into and that's how it started."
Barnes said he was at a hotel in New York City with Pamela Horne on Thursday and they found out about the DNA results together.
"I was disappointed, and I felt bad for Pam, I really did. We've had a good relationship. I hope to keep it. I still consider Pam my adopted sister. I don't know how she feels about me right now. We were in this together. She knew everything I was doing … She is still my adopted sister. We love each other like brother and sister … She was crying … She was disappointed. I was glad I was there with her. I gave her a hug."
He has not heard from Horne since the news.
"I haven't tried to call her. I was going to let her call me."
At the height of the media frenzy, Barnes told his story on Today. He was flown to New York by NBC and put up in a fancy hotel. A camera crew followed Barnes as he was reunited with Horne. But there were no cameras present, he said, when he found out the DNA results. He returned to Kalkaska on Friday but hasn't talked to Richard Barnes, the man who raised him as his son. He has not talked to his sister, Cheryl Barnes.
"I don't talk to them anyways … I know I didn't come from Barnes. I'll still say that. I may not be the missing New York kid. But I don't believe I came from Mr. Barnes."
Why do you expect to continue to have a relationship with Pamela Horne?
"Pam was helping me out a lot. She wanted to know what happened to her brother. She thought I was her brother. She was convinced. I just know I'm not Richard Barnes' son. Pam and I were convinced that we were brother and sister. It wasn't a snap decision. We had a lot of information and we thought we were brother and sister. But we are not. I'm disappointed for Pam and I feel sorry for her mom and dad. I'll always have a soft spot for Pam. She's a great gal."
Barnes said that he sent a letter to Horne in October. He went to Kansas City and met with her for three days, sleeping on the floor in her apartment. They started calling each other every day.
"We both agreed we had a lot in common. She told me that I sounded like her dad. I thought I was onto something. I was getting excited. I was trying to keep it quiet. I didn't want any attention until I knew we actually were related. She has red hair and green eyes, light skin, just like I do. And she's tall."
Barnes said his hopes were raised after a preliminary DNA test suggested that Barnes and Horne were related.
"We did a do-it-yourself DNA kit. It's cheek swabs. This was just a cheap, do-it-yourself DNA kit to see if there is a sibling test. You get what you pay for. It was the cheapest one. Just because I'm not related to Pam and her family, that doesn't mean I'm related to Mr. Barnes. I will say that. I'll always be searching for my identity. I'm not saying that to hurt their feelings. I'm not doing this to embarrass the Barnes family. I didn't mean to hurt anybody's feelings. I was convinced I was this kid. I was convinced. But I?m not."
Barnes said that he had talked to Horne about continuing their relationship if the FBI DNA results came back negative.
"We talked about that many times. If we get a DNA test and fail it, we are still going to be friends. And still have contact and visit with each other. There was no question."
Why don't you take a DNA test to see if you are related to Richard Barnes?
"I asked him 15 years ago to do one and he said he would. Then, when I would press him to do it, he didn't want anything to do it. I don't know how DNA works. It's complicated. I'm not a scientist."
Barnes said that he has several theories on what might have happened to him as a child.
"I've never felt I was related to my mom or my dad. I don't know. I've thought about being switched at birth at the Navy hospital, but that's pretty far-fetched, even back then. I thought my mom might have had an affair. I thought I was kidnapped. I thought, maybe, I was adopted for a while. I even went to Florida in 1996, down to Pensacola to see if I could get any information, and we didn't find anything out."
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